Mondayyy

Today was one of my full day of classes. I ended up missing my first class though because I got locked out of my room on my way to take a shower and had to wait for my roommate to get back to let me in! I missed Psychology of Childhood, but made it to Precalculus, then Honors and ended my classes for the day with Lighting Design.

Today was actually a really good class in lighting design. We began hanging lights and doing all the technical aspects of setting them up for one of the student's projects (there are actually only three students in my class). There were several points during the class where I felt really uncomfortable because I was up so high on the catwalk to do stuff with the lights, but all in all it wasn't so bad. The picture above is of the the theater I have my class in called the Pavilion Theater. It's this small octagon shaped building outside the library that is actually a lot bigger than it looks on the outside. I'm thinking maybe after this semester of learning lighting design I can help do lighting for my old community theater's show this summer.

Tonight I had rehearsal for Pirates again tonight. We had a sing through of the first act with the orchestra for the first time which was interesting. It will improve by showtime I'm sure!

Well, after an exhausting day I'm off to bed! Goodnight!

Sean and I in matching shirts
at Pirates rehearsal

Math Homework

I have just spent way too much of my life doing my math homework. My brain is fried. I should stay up and write my paper for Honors but instead I think I will go to bed and wake up early and write it tomorrow morning. I always tend to produce better writing first thing in the morning. My mind is fresh and ready for the day, thinking about last night's dreams and what's to come throughout the day. I'm so glad I don't have late night classes. I'm such an old person. I get tired so early in the night. I've been doing well to get up fairly early in the mornings too which is good because I'm more productive. I enjoy having classes starting at 11 on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays because I have time to clean or do homework before I get ready for the day. I better get to bed if I want to wake up fairly early tomorrow! Goodnight!

Missing someone...

Being in a long distance relationship with a man in the military who lives across the country, three time zones away, and in California definitely is far from easy but usually is tolerable to handle.

Tonight though is one of those nights where it's hard for me. I'm so tired I just want someone to lay down next to me and hug me, I'd like my best friend here to make me laugh or say something that will at least make me smile. I want to sit here and talk to him about random things that don't matter or other things that do.

A huge thing that makes this even more difficult is that he has never been on this campus and never has any idea of the places I'm talking about, nor has he ever met any of my friends other than via Skype so he can only imagine what these people are like.  He's never stepped foot into my world, only the one I used to live in back home, which is another thing that makes this so hard. He has no presence here. Yeah there's pictures of us up around my room, and I have a couple of his sweatshirts lying around, but the pictures don't move, and the sweatshirts don't smell like him. A picture can't capture the laugh he has when I say something incredibly dorky but funny. Wearing his sweatshirt won't make up for the warmth I feel when he holds me in his arms.

I love hanging out with my roommate and all my other friends. I love my life here at UMaine, but sometimes it can be really hard. It's hard to be so far away from the one person I enjoy being with the most and it's especially hard only seeing him once or twice a year.

I'm usually a really strong independent person when it comes to this. Just once in a great while I get like this. I break down like a normal human being and have trouble handling it. I really am proud of myself for how well I cope with being in a long distance relationship. I have a good friend in one that just sits in his room doing nothing or talking to his girlfriend all day and night despite many invitations to do otherwise. I also have seen people not be able to resist temptation. I am proud of myself for putting myself out there and meeting new people and not letting my lack of a boyfriend here get me down. I allow myself to have fun all while remaining faithful.

Alright I think this episode of sorrow is over for now. Writing it down got it out of my system. Time to get some sleep and start a new day. Goodnight!

Bowlinggg

I forgot to post yesterday after I got out of rehearsal! Yesterday I took this picture.

I love the environment at UMaine. It's just little things like this or sidewalk chalk writings that make me smile. I am definitely reassured I made the right decision to come here.


Tonight I went bowling with my roommate, her boyfriend, her brother who's here for the weekend, and our friend Geo. I haven't been bowling in forever and it was pretty fun! I'm super tired now and I have to wake up early to go to a work call for the musical tomorrow so I will just end this with pictures from tonight!

My roommate Kaitlin and I

Me and Corey

Kyle and Kaitlin

Kaitlin and Geo

Me and Geo

Kaitlin and me

Corey and Kaitlin

 Goodnight!

Overheard Dialogue at the Bangor Mall

    Amy, a twenty-something petite blonde woman with stylish clothes and a friendly smile, walked into Victoria’s Secret one snowy afternoon slightly anxious. She had a to do list a mile long and checking things off of it was taking more time than she had anticipated. After walking around the store aimlessly for several minutes she decided she’d be better off asking one of the sales associates for help. So Amy approached Allison, a gorgeous brunette with a helpful persona, and told her what she was looking for today, the perfect bra to go under her wedding dress. Allison suddenly felt the pressure upon realizing that this sale was not going to be just a normal sale. She needed to make it right. As they discussed the excitement of the upcoming wedding Allison picked up several bras she thought might work and they made their way to the dressing room. “So you just decided two weeks ago?” asked Allison slightly surprised by the speedy planning.
    “Well, we've been engaged for a while but he’s in the military and he just found out he’s getting deployed in March,” replied Amy with a look of both excitement and worry on her face. “We decided it would be best to get married before he leaves.”
    “Oh, well that makes sense,” said Allison with a smile, slightly taken aback and not knowing exactly how to respond. “So where are you having the wedding?”
    This was a good choice of topic change for now Amy began to get excited, “We decided to have it at the Winterport Winery.”
    “Ooh,” replied Allison pleased with herself, “That sounds like a nice place to hold a ceremony. So, have you thought about getting something a little sexy for the wedding night?”
    “Yes,” Amy responded with a smile, “I’ll be needing your help to pick that out too.”

Bust a Move

 

Today I woke up in the mood to dance. After finishing some homework that I had put off doing the night before and had woken up early to do, I decided that putting on my Rockettes shirt would be an appropriate choice of attire. I've seen the Rockettes perform their Christmas show three times and watch them every year on the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. I love watching how well they all synchronize their movements. I've always thought how cool it would be to be one of them. Last year though, I found out that due to genetics I would never be able to become one. The height requirement is a minimum of 5'7'', and I am only 5'3''. So much for that dream!

Every once in a while I get in one of those happy moods where all I want to do is dance. I had a very busy day consisting of four back to back classes, a singing rehearsal for the musical, and then a real rehearsal. Backstage when there wasn't a whole lot to do I'd start doing really ridiculous dance moves. I've danced pretty much my whole life and sometimes it's just in my nature to want to bust a move. Although it's been a couple months since I've actually really danced choreography sometimes it's fun to just turn on some music really loud and dance around my room, and when I got home from rehearsal that's exactly what I did.

Oops! Almost forgot!

So it's almost 1AM and I was about to go to bed when I remembered I hadn't posted anything yet. Today was a really good day full of fun enjoyable people. I also played guitar a lot. The thing I wanted most this year for Christmas was a new guitar so I could really improve my playing, I had been using my mom's old guitar that she got for her birthday when she was really young and it just wasn't cutting it. Even though I'm not that good at guitar I love teaching myself how to get better at playing. I took a class last year in high school to learn the basics, but for the most part I have been teaching myself. I'm weird though in that I really don't like playing in front of people. I think I have reverse stage fright. I'd rather sing, dance, act, or play something in front of a huge audience than just for a few people. Anyways, I played with my boyfriend on Skype as well as my roommate listening in, which was good enough for me. I'm hoping that soon I'll be able to write a song, but we'll see about that. I'm horrible at writing songs. I'm exhausted so today's entry is going to be a short one. But here's a bunch of pictures I took of my guitar today!

Goodnight!